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I AM (2015) 
for voice and piano
poem by John Clare

premiere: April 28th, 2015 at SubCulture New York by Matthew Worth (baritone) and Gregg Kallor

poem: 
I am: yet what I am none cares or knows; 
My friends forsake me like a memory lost; 
I am the self-consumer of my woes - 
They rise and vanish in oblivion's host, 
Like shadows in love, frenzied, stifled throes: - 
And yet I am, and live - like vapours tost

Into the nothingness of scorn and noise, 
Into the living sea of waking dreams, 
Where there is neither sense of life or joys, 
But the vast shipwreck of my life's esteems; 
Even the dearest, that I love the best
Are strange - nay, rather stranger than the rest.

I long for scenes, where man hath never trod, 
A place where woman never smiled or wept
There to abide with my Creator God, 
And sleep as I in childhood sweetly slept, 
Untroubling and untroubled where I lie, 
The grass below, above, the vaulted sky.